Hey everyone! It’s been a minute since I wrote a journal entry and this morning I watched this video on Instagram talking about how people don’t ask themselves enough what they want out of life and it really got me thinking. I started this new journey with my blogging and all other platforms in the beginning of the year but I had been talking about working on it and wanting to launch it since the beginning of the pandemic. I had so many reservations this time around, would it be stupid? Would anyone care what I have to say? What if people I know make fun of it? I let these and other roadblock questions stand in my way. I let fear stand in my way. Instead of asking myself what makes me happy? Where do I want this to go? Why do I want to do this? It was until I started answering those questions to and for myself, did I get the courage to say to myself the answer to the previous questions were who fucking cares? (pardon my language but I needed the extra oomph so you know where I’m coming from!)
I’ve been told to focus on myself since I was little and yet I feel like we are some how societally taught to focus on what everyone else is doing. I don’t know if that comes from exposure to tabloids and news that revolves around what other people of notoriety are doing versus what’s going on with ourselves on a daily. Comparison is a silent killer yet we’re programmed to compare ourselves to everyone. Instead of seeking inspiration, motivation, finding out what makes us who we are and happy, it’s been warped into feeling less than and becoming bitter and critical while simultaneously diminishing our self-worth unbeknownst to us or not. Even worse when it brings you joy to bring other’s down. We can’t celebrate in other’s achievements because it’s not our own all whilst wishing for something big to happen to us and not putting forth the thought, energy, motivation and action to turn our wants into reality. Some of the best success stories come from an idea manufactured solely out of the desire to create something bigger with limited resources. It didn’t happen because of oodles of wealth, it came from someone believing in themselves, what they were doing and the resources will come. Believing that they had an idea worth executing and knowing that they would be the person to accomplish that, no matter what nay sayers said, no matter what obstacles came their way, they knew they had to push forward to get to the top of that mountain. That to me is so inspiring.
Any reason you tell yourself as to why you can’t do something or why you’re not good enough is made up. Whether it be past trauma and conditioning from childhood, someone made you feel like you’re not enough and still believing that today or maybe just never thinking about what more you want for yourself because you never thought it was a possibility. I think the major thing is that when you find something you love and are passionate about, the thing that makes you want to get up in the morning and work, every investment whether that be your time, money, energy into that passion makes it worth it. When you know specifically what you’re working towards, the end goal, it makes it easier to compartmentalize what’s important and what to focus on while going through the everyday bs that life sometimes throws at you. Being clear as to what you want out of life and constantly making strides to achieve that should be something you’re so insanely proud of and I believe that will motivate you harder to work towards those accomplishments.
I believe that we’re all meant for greatness and sometimes it’s hard to see that with the obstacles that life has put in front of us. With struggle and pushing through hardships, you have a story to tell. For every person in your life that has made you feel like you can’t be more than what they think you are, show them who you really are. It’s easy for bystanders to be negative about your work or potential when they’re also not happy with the way their life is going, their opinion of you and what you want to do is not fact, it’s a deflection from dealing with what’s going on in their own lives that it’s easier to bring you down. Rise above it. I think you all are destined for greatness when you realize you are your potential. What you believe about yourself is what you allow others to believe about you. You are worthy of happiness and I implore you to sit down and really think about it. Pull out your journal and really reflect on what it is you want in your life and what are the tangible moves you can commit to in your current state to make it happen. I believe in you.
Kind of rant but that’s what’s on my heart today and I wanted to share. I wish you nothing but happiness and hope that you know you can do anything you want, figure out what you want to be and go be it.
All my love,
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